dark side forces

Conquer dark side forces. Madelaine was confronted by “them” when here. “Alot of violence in me.” My past incarnations. I saw them last night, trying to keep me from breathing. It happened to Madelaine also. Cat to rescue.

When I don’t have food and drink to lean on, these things happen. My physical control (habits) only suppresses certain mental events wanting to recur–killing a guard. My military careers keep wanting to reassert.

Must use courage and strategy for the right cause (again), but without violence. Uni is the only institution (12th) with friends and (11th) to complete my chart…a void without it. Don’t know what will happen or how I will be received, but must try. Not enthused over work careers– only spiritual sciences. No pay there though. Can only discover my past and future works there. No hope here–no one here.
Tom took my ego (vanity and courage) and now prances around full of confidence while evil grows stronger inside. I took his divine powers to enhance my astral perceptions to receive knowledge (for good) and to re-experience karma (bad). It was premature on my part Now I am stuck with working out karma and he with my egos. His incarnations as an officer cause him to move as a general. He is “anal retentive,” and hides when rejected (sleeps) something I do recently.

Madelaine seeks protection from others in a strong figure–-me, but I couldn’t do it for her. I cannot reject others. This is the opposite of Tom, but bears the same results. The karmic evil gets her anyway—same karma.

I cannot reject L.O. up here, because he gets through anyway–same karma.
I’ve gone too far to turn back, so I must go.